-Please don’t read if you don’t care, just a personal story I had to write to vent the sadness.-
Have you ever been with someone,
For years, and years, and years.
And then woke up one day in tears because you havn’t talked to them in a week? Because they never responded to anything.
Have you ever had that overwhelming feeling, like all you need to feel full in life is a hug, or a kiss, or to just see them smile.
And then they call you and say “We need to talk, be over soon.”
And then they make their way over, and you are filled with happiness and joy, and the thrill of being with your lover- your soul mate.
Then you sit on your bed, and your feelings start to finally coax your way over to them ready to hold them, squeeze them, and kiss them.
But then she spoke.
With soft tender words that escaped her lips through quivers.
And she told me “I want independence, and I cannot have that while I’m tied down to you. I’m breaking up with you.”
And at first it doesn’t hit.
And she starts to cry those salty tears. So you tell her “Its okay! It’s alright. This is good. It’s okay, I wanted this too!”
But then.. You start to cry.
You beg. And beg. And beg.
Hoping this is just a joke.
Hoping this would all just be taken back.
But alas, she doesn’t want you anymore.
She has bigger plans now.
And all you can think about is how you were there for her every day. Through everything- you stood by her. Spent so much time, keeping her happy, getting close to her family. And now its all gone.
And you cry. And cry. And cry.
And you don’t eat anymore.
And you lose weight..
Because you have Noone. No one to talk to. No one to share your pain. And she has everyone. Everyone supports her decision “yeah, you need to be with other guys, anyways!”
And she has so much Fun..
With all of “your friends”.
But don’t worry, mates.
Because time heals.
And you’ll make new friends.
And you’ll meet new people!
I know this, because it happened to.me. And if a female is reading this, it still has some validity.
Things will get better.
The pain will never truly go away until you can accept that the relationship is over. If you were meant to be- then you will be.
Live in the present. Not the past, and not the future.
Because you only live once.
And you are way too damn young to give a FUCK.